Kail Lowry revealed this week that she may be taking a trip to Texas in the near future in the hopes of finding closure, as well as the answers to many questions she has regarding her family life, upbringing and more.
On Tuesday’s episode of her Karma & Chaos podcast, the former Teen Mom 2 star shared with listeners that she’ll soon be “joining the dead dads club,” as her father, Raymond Lowry, is suffering from stage 4 chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD). While Kail confirmed to her friend and podcast co-host Becky Hayter that she already feels as though she’s a part of this “club,” due to the fact that she’s been estranged from her father for years, she admitted that she still feels “conflicted” about the situation.
“I feel like it’s layered,” Kail explained, noting that she learned about her father’s condition through her aunt, who also revealed to Kail that Ray is currently receiving Hospice care. “ … it’s layered in that, obviously I don’t have a relationship with him and never did, but I feel like I didn’t ever get the answers that I’ve been looking for … .”
As you may remember, MTV followed along as a pregnant teenage Kail traveled to Texas to reunite with Ray (for the first time since she was an infant) in 2009 while filming her episode of 16 and Pregnant. The father-daughter reunion ended up going incredibly awkward for Kail– rightfully so, given that infamous locked meat freezer moment. She confirmed this week that she hasn’t seen her father since that 2009 reunion.
The mom of seven– who is also estranged from her mother, Suzi– shared on her podcast that in 2019, she sent her father a message asking if he would take a DNA test, which he allegedly agreed to do. Unfortunately, Kail said that after sending the test to him, her father refused to take it. (She later explained to listeners that she knows Ray is her biological father, but wanted him to take a DNA test, as she has doubts regarding the identity of his biological father.)
“So I’m like, I feel like you don’t get to die without answering all the questions I have,” she said. “ … I want to know why he left. I want to know why he didn’t try harder. I want to know why he just gave up.
“I want to know why he didn’t just give up on me, but then he turned around and did the same thing to my sister,” she continued, referring to her half-sister Mikaila, whom fans met years ago on ‘Teen Mom 2.’
Kail claimed that she and her sister have been told different things by their father, and because of that, she feels like he owes explanations to them both. She also admitted that she’s “mad” at her dad, before going on to mention that she allegedly has other siblings by him that she’s never met.
“I also never got to meet any of my siblings from the Philippines,” she claimed. “Like, I know that will never happen, not that it would have happened if he was staying here.”
When asked if even Ray knows these alleged children, Kail admitted that she’s unsure.
“I mean, I don’t know if he does [know them], but why didn’t you try for them either,” she asked. “I want to know how someone walks through this earth and does the bare minimum to get by in life, and you procreated multiple times and you don’t care.
“I just want to know where your head is at,” she continued. “I want to know how you walked through this earth doing the bare minimum and didn’t give a f**k about anything, not just us, but just in general.”
Becky– whom it was revealed earlier in the episode had lost her father at some point– said she feared Kail wouldn’t get any answers from Ray if she were to confront him, though she encouraged Kail to “do what you need to do.” In response, Kail admitted that she doesn’t want to give her father the “satisfaction” of her coming to see him before he dies.
“Like, you don’t deserve that,” she said. “So, that’s where I’m also like, you don’t get to die without giving me answers, but I also … don’t want to give him the satisfaction of like, I still came through at the end of it all.”
Later on the podcast, Kail– who claimed that she’s “felt like an orphan” most of her life– said that confronting her father would be her way of getting closure, as she doesn’t see herself attending his funeral.
“I could picture myself going down to Texas, talking to him, trying to get answers … and then that’s my closure,” she said. “But I do not have any plans to see him in a funeral [or] viewing, wake, I want no parts of that. I do not give a f**k where you end up. I just need to know these things … .”
While Kail said she believes she will ultimately travel to Texas to see her father, she didn’t give listeners a definitive answer.
Watch a clip from the podcast episode below.
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